Mommy Meltdown

I wondered when the lack of sleep would catch up with me... It only took 22 nights of constant interupted sleep... (5 nights from Carter before Lanie was born and 17 nights after Lanie was born)

Yesterday I had my meltdown. Craig had a meeting to go to and said he did not think it would be longer than an hour. Well after listening to Lanie fuss and sometimes scream off and on for an hour and a half as well as nurse for what felt like eternity and still no Craig... All the while trying to cook dinner for Carter and I with Lanie having to be held or else she cried so hard I thought she stopped breathing, Carter crying because he was in a mood I finally broke down and cried all the while eating my dinner standing up and holding Lanie. Carter asked me why I was sad and I told him because I am tired and I just wanted him and Lanie to stop crying. He said, Mommy I not crying anymore, you stop being sad. I just couldnt though. I was just so tired and I wanted to call Craig and tell him he needed to come home NOW. 2 hours after Craig left he walked through the door as we were about to head upstairs to bed and Carter ran up to Daddy and told him he needed to fix Mommy. I was broken... yes, yes I was. Nothing that 4 straight hours of sleep last night did not fix though. Thankfully Craig took care of Lanie til she finally fell asleep so I could go to bed early. (If you call 9:30 early).

Tomorrow is always a new day...